Careless >.<

December 14, 2008

I have been lost my student identity card for three months. I have forgotten the last time I kept that card. I should’ve managed a new card, but I was too lazy to do it. My friends told me that I have to pay Rp.100.000; and go to three different places to have a new card. For me, that’s complicated. Moreover, I considered the card is not really necessary at the time because I can still do my campus activities without that card. I can still borrow books from the library, using the internet access, and having the exam without that card. The only activity that I can’t do without that card is borrowing the campus bike, but it doesn’t really matter because I can take yellow bus to go around the campus. Ha-ha. What a lazy me!
However, finally I realized that I should manage a new card. I’m afraid that the problem of losing student identity card will still be come out someday. Knowing that one of my classmates also has lost her student identity card, I plan to ask her to manage the new card together. Well, I think it will be better and less complicated if we doing it by two. My friends and I planned to manage the card last Wednesday, but then suddenly she told me that she was running out of money. Therefore, we have to postpone the plan (again). Actually, I was a little bit disappointed at that time. I was in the good mood to manage a new card, but suddenly my friend has a problem with the money.
Nevertheless, I am used to believe that everything always happened for a reason, and once again it is proven to be. Today, I’m the good mood to clean my room. When I was cleaning my worktable’s drawer which is already over loaded and messy, I found my identity card is slipping among some papers note. Whoa, what a lucky me! I have to thank to God for showing me where is the card actually hides. (Naughty card!) Well, perhaps I also have to thank to my friend for postponing our plan to manage the new card, so I don’t have to waste my Rp. 100.000;
Ha-ha… My three months without student identity card is happy ending.
n_n
* Can you please remind me to always keep my stuff safely? *

I.N.S.O.M.N.I.A

INSOMNIA

I have been suffering from sleep disorder for the last one year. This sleep disorder actually a little bit strange. I call it insomnia, although I’m not really sure whether it’s really insomnia or not. I am used to sleep around 10 or 11 at night, but then I will always automatically awake around 1 or 2 am, and sleepless until the time for praying subuh. At first, I didn’t understand why it is always hard to sleep every night. I feel very sleepy and obviously want to sleep, but strangely my eyes won’t be closed. Seems like they rejecting my will to sleep. Sometimes this sleep disorder is advantageous when I need to stay up late in the night to do some assignments. Nevertheless, it is really sucks because I will get sleepy later in the morning while I’m sitting in the class.

I have read some articles about sleep disorders, especially insomnia. I’ve tried the tips given on the articles, but still didn’t work. I am not used to sleeping at noon, but I will still awake in the middle of the night. I sleep earlier, but then I will still wake up too early at 1 am as usual. I have read on an article, the one of the causal factors of insomnia is the atmosphere at the bedroom. It mentioned that people will easily fall asleep if the atmosphere at the bedroom supporting them to sleep. It suggest not to making bedroom as a place to do work or other things but sleeping. But how could I do? Since I’m living in dormitory, I only have a small room to live. I am sleeping, eating, and doing my tasks at the bedroom because it’s the only room provided for me. I think it’s the most conceivable reason why I get the sleep disorder.

The atmosphere of my room doesn’t support me to sleep. It’s already proven on my last semester holiday. I spent the two months holiday in my home town. At home, I’m able to do my activities at the separate rooms. Sleeping at the bed room, eating at the dining room, working or studying at the other room, and strangely I didn’t have sleep disorder at all! I got sleep easily, even at the earlier time than usual, and I never wake up at midnight anymore. At that time, I thought my insomnia was already cured. I thought I get the sleep disorder just because of homesick, but I was wrong! When I went back to the dorm after the holiday ended, I get the sleep disorder again. Well, I think this insomnia won’t be end as long as I live in this kind of small room.

[ * take a deep breath * ]

T_T

H.O.M.E.S.I.C.K

November 18, 2008

I’m homesick, and this kind of feeling has been growing lately. I feel that my present life isn’t really going right. I need to see my family and my old friends in Blitar, my home town. I miss them badly. If Doraemon’s magic door was really exist, I would have borrowed it to go home town right now. Moreover, today I got a bad news from Kartika, my best friend in senior high school. Her father passed away this morning after hospitalized since last week. He suffered from stroke. Actually, last night Kartika sent me a short message, and told me that her father was getting better. He had been moved from the ICU, and the doctor said that her father’s health was one step better. Therefore, the fact that her father passed away this morning must have shocked her. Kartika and her father have a very close relationship. She must be very sad of losing him. I can feel it from her husky voice that I heard, when I phoned her to say my condolence.

I want to see Kartika right now. Hugging and calming her. I want to stand by her side, but I can’t. All I can do is just praying. I never thought that Kartika will lose her father so fast. I cannot imagine if it happened to me. I realize that everyone will be die someday, and that God had decided the day we die. Because of it, everyday I pray and thank to God, that my family still in good health.

Oh, I miss them more and more now…